I'm a contended and happy girl for now. Darling allowed me to meet my lovely star any day ~ as long as I'm meeting her to study. I'm not mad at prince for not allowing me to ton at her house, I don't know why either. But he promised to have breakfast with me if he's gonna stay over at Cindy's place.

Really can't wait to see that idiot, I swear I miss her more than my love - daryl is gonna be one jealous and angry idiot if he sees this. But im seeing him this Wed and he's having a long long long weekend. I hope we could catch another movie again or maybe do something else outside of this house rather than facing this laptop the whole day.

Last week, I went down to Fareast with my sis and des. I got her a dress from CHAOS and she's gonna wear it for her bday. Burnt a hole in my pocket but still worth it though cos she's the sis that dotes on me.

Kongkong and me bought this astray for only 10 bucks. I bought it for my love becos his astray is stained with wax. He and his itchy fingers. And I saw this super big and tall Sunflower. Believe me, its taller than me and its super nice ! If darling gives me that, I swear I would be smiling for the whole damn week, lol.


Saturday, dear and me went down to Bishan to watch The Forbidden Kingdom. Quite a nice show. Wasn't exactly fantastic but with the accompany of darling, every boring show becomes a interesting show. Seriously, its not what you eat that is nice, its not what you watch thats nice. Its not where you are that makes you happy, its who you are with that makes you happy. Even if I am standing right infront of the most beautiful thing in the world, without my love, it would be nothing.

Darling stopped reading my blog alr, he used to read my blog evertime he book out. But now,he don't even bother reading it anymore because my blog isn't his home page anymore ~ BLOODY VIRUS ! But he'll be reading it soon because aft my Prelims, I would be blogging bout my meals and pictures as edvidence to show him I ate my proper meals.

Anyways, I won't be blogging so often compared to last time(I know I blogged less often already). Everyone knows the reason why, I don't have to spell it out, do i ? P-R-E-L-I-M-S !

One of my classmates birthday present, damn cute lor.

And the super super tall and big sunflower !

What is love without trust ? What is love without understanding ? And what is love when all the sweet lil' things start to turn sour ?

Have you ever felt so threatened in your love life before ? You hate the way how things are but yet you have to go with the flow.

Because...because...because....

The only thing you're holding on to is him.

But then again,

with r/s comes sacrifice.

My dear,you've got to know this.

Whatever you say, I'll try to listen.

Whatver I say, you've got to try to understand.

When I say I'll try to do it,you've got to trust me.

Baby, I know, one day your words would mean something to me.

Then I'll realise,what you did were because you wanted the best for me.

As always ~ I love you.

Tell me,whats life without her.

Its hard not being able to hold on to both of them - both are inevitable,something I couldn't afford to lose.

One is someone I couldn't live without, the only one who brightens up my day - Mr. Boyfriend.

The other is someone who is always there, someone who I could pour my trouble to anytime - Star~

Darling couldn't really understand why I needed her, why I still insisted on meeting her. I've known her longer than him but yet both of them are equally important to me. I couldn't give up this 4 years friendship, neither could I give up this 14th month relationship.

I couldn't make him understand, he's tired of this, this topic that we've been quarrelling over for months. He still had that tiny heart that felt that I needed a lil freedom. At least that was what I felt.

But anyways, thanks my love. For believing I would keep my promise, for loving me that much. I love you.

To my best friend : I know you understand how I'm feeling everytime,this time is no exceptional. Just wna let you know, don't give up on this f/s becos you know I'll still be here after Kenny comes out. I may not be able to be there but I'll be a call away ~

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I love the technology so much now ~ 3G has become so handy,at least for me and darling. I had my first 3G conversation with darling yesterday. I swear its damn fun, I sound a lil "Sua Gu" here but really damn fun~ Then awhile ago dear just called me and he's charging the phone now and he's gonna call me later !

Believe it or not,I had six pack in a day.

I never know moodswing could be this bad man.Just yesterday I had a terrible moodswing,I didn't talk to prettyboy at all,not even after I wake up. Pratically ignored him for the whole damn afternoon,lol. Was supposed to meet star to study & then after that pool but then I couldn't decide whether to go or not. Then dear asked if I wanted to go with him to Cindy's place.

So we got changed and headed down to Gardens and ate Cafe Cartel. On the way to the super market, we passed by this shop which sells lots of cute stuffs and for the first time darling asked me to take a picture.

Went over to her place after that. And this is fever ~ Bloody wierd name but f adorable ~

We watched the 3 DVD that we rented - Knocked up,Yours,mine,ours and Harnibel. When we came home, I insisted that we wear our long sleeve top that my sis got for me from her event.Its too big to be worn out so we wore it to sleep =D Just like our two teddy ~ Pink & Blue !

I made breakfast for darling in the AFTERNOON. I emphasize on the word afternoon becos initially,I was supposed to wake up at 7.30am to cook for dear. We only mananged to sleep at 5.30am so that explains why I couldn't drag myself out of bed.So here's the sweet lil breakfast I made for him ~ We had waffle with ice cream for the dessert.

Have you been wondering where my six pack came from ? How they could appear just in a day ? I don't work out at all, all I needed to do is to hand a permanant marker to dear and thats where my six pack popped out from. The lesson I learnt today is to never ever play with permanant marker with darling,never again man.

But at least I had my fair share of fun ~ I drew a spine for him and also intestines,heart,lungs, arteries and stomach.

Fun weekend ~ Sorry star,I'll meet you some other days - miss you ~

We never seemed to understand each other.
Is that why we're what we are today ?

I hate us.

Us being like this all the time.
Us not being able to understand each other.
Us not knowing what to do everytime.

If there's anything I could change,
it would be your love for me.

So exhausted,maybe not the right word. Is there any other word which means more than exhausted ?

I just had my F&N "N" Lvl Practical and its so screwed,as always. I think I did much more better last year.

My bloody muffins were burnt becos I set the degree to the max ( I know,I'm fucking dumb ) and its supposed to be Banana muffin - then it turned out black ! zzzz.

Then my assy crepe decided to turn me down during the last 30mins, damn pissed but managed to get it done - imperfectly.

As usual, I had a dish which is a soup , to be frank, it sucked alot, more than plain soup. zzzz

Save the best for the last ~ At least I had a proper dish, Fried Rice wrapped up with omelete, like the one in the textbook. FYI,I chose my recipes in a rush,I'll touch on that later. Overall, its the nicest dish ~

I miss KR kitchen ~ Kr kitchen is more organize and definately much cleaner than YYSS. If Ms Png would to come into YYSS and step into the kitchen, the first bloody thing she would do is scream her ass off. Serious,thats how bad the kitchen is.


The floor has footprints all over and its damn sticky. The utensils are rusty,dirty and ugly ~ The way the teacher do things is horrendous. Maybe I'm just not used to her way of doing things but it definately sucks for me. Shit,am I bringing the school reputation down, no right ? zzz.


Now the good things ~ I must say that my classmates are very creative, at least YYSS have great students. Mine was one of the lousest one I guess, so much for buying those stuffs. Nvm, effort counts.


How long have I not blog so long ? I wanted to post some of my triple overdue pictures from my KL trip that my sis didnt post . I guess I'll post it other time , I'm too tired, didn't know cooking can drain all my energy away ~

Yesterday,dear and me went to the supermarket to get my F&N stuffs. Instead of buying my F&N stuffs,we bought other non-related F&N stuffs.

Came back and guess what we did before dinner,we popped our pop corn in the microwave ~

After dinner,dear made me egg with lots of scallop at the bottom =D Delicious ~

This is my big bruise from falling down while wearing my shorts.DEAR,this is call silly ok,not gundu !

I've never had this kind of love before,so beautiful yet it feels like its all in a mess ; a r/s that shldn't even started.

The smallest quarrel can never be compared to the big ones but yet I could cry over the slightest reason. I can never figure why this love means so much to me. You coloured my world,created my world with lots of beautiful things but why add quarrels to it ? I know its my fault too but why be so mad over such things.

I'm starting to get bored of this, what have we not gone through ? I know we can handle this, if we were that patience. But fyi, we're off the track. You always have this mentality that you're the only one enduring everything, am I not ? If I'm not then we won't be here at all.

Sometimes I wish we didn't get this far, shouldn't even met . But then again, you're the most wonderful person I ever but also the last person I would ever wna marry - so contradicting. But why ? ~ becos I'm so in love with you.

P.S : I wish God planned our quarrels for a better future ahead of us.

For the past few days,I've been spending lots and lots of time with dear becos he booked out on Wednesday but he's going back tmr morning but will be out this monday morning ~

Played mj for he past few nights with kongkong & Des.Lost quite alot and I super hate to play mj with daryl ong becos he always bully me and then always will end up with a quarrel. zzz ~

I woke up late for school on Thursday =.= But managed to get changed within 5mins and rushed to school immediately. Lucky my school is like 3-4mins + walk from his house. While walking to school,I realised I did the stupidest thing someone ever done lor. I was walking down the staircase and then realised everything was so blur. So I was thinking and thinking ~ "OH FUCK,I forgotten my contact lens." Then I was laughing to myself =.=

Anyways,prettyboy and me spent our afternoon doing something together,and I'm very happy. We were supposed to buy the clothes for my bears which he promised to after I am discharge from the hospital. But I thought of making the clothes instead,to save money and I also find it sweet to do it tgt. I'll post the pictures some other time =D Half way done ~

P.S : PrettyBoy insisted that I write this here ~ I love you luhs my lovely love !

How long had I not blog ? Hur. Anyways,you can go to my sisters blog to see my M'sia trip instead of waiting for me to blog.Becos I will not be blogging bout it =/

Anyways,life has been alright,so far so good ~ Can't wait for my N's to be over.This week is packed with so many school stuffs - English Oral,Napfa,Maths Mock test,supposingly Chinese Oral on Tuesday but they postphoned it.Before March holiday until now,they haven't got a proper date for us to take our Chinese Oral.Honestly,it doesn't really matter if there is a chinese oral becos I'll still fucking fail my chinese ~ ROAR !

On my way home just now,I was about to walk through the block next to darling's then I realised that the whole void deck was filled with dead cockroaches,some were still struggling to survive,there were even baby cockroaches.Wahlao,I swear my heart almost stopped.A few cockroaches nvm you know but I'm sure there were more than a hundred cockroaches. Fucking freak me out luhs.

I'm going home now,just came back to darling's house to blog becos Im too lazy to bring my laptop back home and I'll be back here in less than a week..so ciao ~

Look what I did to dear's computer.lol