At least I get to do what I wanted to do,to frame our picture up =)

Stepping into that house brings more than memory,the feeling was awkward so is the atmosphere.I had a glanced at him,didn't dare to steal another glance,afraid I'll not be able to draw the damn line.


I don't know if its him or Auntie Jann that made me realise it'll be fine if we're not a couple,
at least we're still on talking terms..Too much on my mind just now,nervousness took over me.
Wanted very much to get out of that house immediately but was forced to stay for dinner by Auntie Jann.I'm glad I resisted the temptation of grabbing a hug from him before I go...

And then once again,I don't know anything anymore.Can't get anymore answers to my guesses,
am too tired to hang on becos it seems like its not gonna work out anymore.Been thinking of ways to deal with our problems IF we're gonna be tgt again,but then again,its just an IF that will never happen..

I don't wna drag our memories everywhere I go anymore.I need a life,a real life to live in. Am too tired of chasing my fantasy.Am not begging him to trust me,I just need an answer,at least tell me if I'm still gonna be a part of you.

Can't help but to hate myself,for being so gundu.Like he always call me,I guess I am really one.
I start thinking only after big things like this happens.Sometimes the things he says makes sense but only if he could see how much my words makes sense too..


~ Stay Close, Don't Go .