Our love is just like a glass shattered into pieces and then fixed together again.

It may look as perfect as it used to be but whats within those broken glasses ?

Cracks.

It may not be able to last as long as we think but

just handle it with care.

Love,

Skully

Gatsby >>> Joel feat Zhi ming korkor

A week more and school is reopening.The school principal (Yu Ying Sec) wants to see my dad to sign some papers for my transferring of school but seems like my dad is not free at all.So the paper work are not done yet so bahhhh,i need a transfer badly man..

Been very lethargic for this month.I don't even bother putting on any make up,not even drawing my eyebrow.zzzzz I'm losing my appetite man,usually I would eat a plate of rice or more but now I'm only eating 3/4 of it.Today I really had a good meal,thanks darling.

Bahhhh,I wish daryl ong would be back before 4ammmmmm ='( Gonna sleep now,nights

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I'm so speechless man..like I've got so much to say yet I've been deleting everything that I'm typing now..zzzzzz.

Anyways,I dont know if this is a good or bad news but me and daryl are still together.. Just hope everyone could give me their support..but if I ever fall again,pls be there to catch my fall..

I was at daryl's house earlier on becos they had a celebration there and decided to come home earlier since I got nothing to do there zzzz Daryl promised he would come home with me but guess thats another lie he just made..Just hope he would drop by later or what becos he said he would come home with me but he just didn't know what time he could becos kasar and his friends are at his house...

Its so crowded outside but then why the hell am I feeling so lonely.I dare not tell anyone how I feel,afraid they might scold me for being a silly girl again...

Darling isnt here to open his xmas present from me ='( If I know I shouldn't have gone all th eway to bugis just to buy his present,roarrr !

Anyways daryl,though you're not here when the clock strikes 12am,still,Merry Xmas to you..


Santa,send me my boyfriend pls.

What the hell am I thinking when I know theres sucha a slim chance of being together again.

Bahhhhh,was expecting more from your answer..since you wanted me to go over becos its Auntie Pam's bday then zzz i dont know.

The only reason why I've got so high hopes becos he msged me last night,wasn't very sure if he was drunk or not..zzzz.Again,I dont know.My heart just went soft like how he first wooed me..

我总是心太软 心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
你知道我没那么坚强。。

http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2007/11/harmony_is_over.php

"But what seperates the kind of fights that break relationships and the ones that make couple grow closer together is how you resolve it, and also how sincere you are in resolving it.

Every couple fights. But every fight is also an opportunity to get everything you want out of your system and to learn more about one another. Every cold war is a time for us to reflect on our own actions and our partner's words. After that, there should be a phone call or a text. No matter how stubborn a person is, no one can be so stubborn until they'd turn down a chance to genuinely compromise, reconcile, and make things better.

Besides, the first hug after a week-long cold war is always the best."


Credits - Kenny Sia

为什么脆弱时候 想你更多

如果你也听说 有没有想过我

想普通交朋友 还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说

悬着一颗心没着落 要怎么附和

舍不得 又无可奈何

如果你也听说 会不会相信我

对流言会附和 还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多

冷漠的人就你一个

想到你想起我 胸口依然温柔

Everytime when I read his blog,my heart would skipped a beat..I miss reading that blog but now,its not only about me,his work,his family and friends,its more than I could ever expect of..Why her ?

Each paragraph leads to another wild guesses of mine,fuck.If only I'm that smart to think,then I wouldn't have so much problems,so much problems to think.

Maybe for now,its time for me to think about us,our future - if we're still ever gonna be together.I don't know if I should hang on to this r/s becos its not gonna go anywhere if we're not gonna do something about us.Even if we're together,would you still love me ? Wouldn't you have the thought of being with her still?

I don't know if losing my phone is a sign,maybe its just me thinking too much.See what I mean,I'm just thinking and thinking.How I wish I could use my brains more on my exmas.haha.
Lost that phone model twice man,if I'm gonna buy that model back again,then I'm just trying to act cute.lol.

I hate how the days pass so slowly,I can't wait for an answer but now I really wish the time goes this slow,or maybe slower than now..I'm not only waiting for his answer,I'm thinking of mine too.Just like him,I don't wna regret any of my decision.

Oh well oh well,see how much love can do harm to us..It may be that wonderful in the the beginning but all the problems just start coming after awhile..Like a speeding posh car you see on the road and then the next moment you realised,sucha beautiful car becomes deformed.



; 原来努力没有用。。

I don't agree with what they say,the more I try to distract myself from my troubles by playing computer games,the more I think about my problems.I fucking died 8times in maple yesterday.

Now I know why they drink to drown their sorrows,really it works.But after the kick is gone,everything just comes back to you.Got wasted twice and I swear it's fucking horrible.Surprisingly,two bottles of martell couldn't make a bad drinker like me drunk.

I'm fucking sad becos I lost my fucking phone on my way back to the pub from macdonalds.Though I can get another phone and thats one of my wish hanged on the xmas tree, I don't want mummy to spend those type of money..sighs.

Just realised we three sisters got a little more closer already.I really love them more than anything or anyone else,Mummy too.Now I swear,nothing comes before them and them includes desmond and joel.


Though I still want to be with you badly,but how long more can we last if we both don't compromise and have a good talk.Until now I'm still making wild guesses about you and her.I don't know who exactly she is,but is she all you could ever ask for ?

And..is this time apart really for me to grow up ? Didn't you fall for me becos I'm who I am,you wouldn't love me if I'm that mature.

Are all guys the same ? I don't want to judge you now man..My heart really hurts when all they say is ; "Guys are jerks,they're all the same ! " I really doubt that sentence,becos theres one good man staying in my house.And I wish the second person is you.

Enough said,too worn out already..I'm gonna have a good sleep and probably wake up as a happy girl tmr..



; I think Im losing myself too - where have I gone to ?

Thanks,

you told the biggest lie you ever could.

Heartbroken,this is the word.

Can we please work things out before you go on your way
See i got alota things on my mind and I know your feelin' the same
Cause the situations outta control

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothin' to do with you
Im feelin' blue lets work things out
Cause I don't know what to do

And I'm gonna miss you
like a child misses their blanket
but I gotta get a move on with my life
That's just the way it has to go
And big girls don't cry

What should I do. I
'm missin' you
And I feel so down
Now that your gone,
I can't go on
This must be the end

I woke up with 3 scratches on my face,kind of wierd man.I felt the pain only after I woke up zzz
Think I gave myself those 3 scratches while I was sleeping.I am disfigured now man ='(

Went for DimSum in the morning at TongLok in VivoCity with my family,popo even came with us.Long time since we had a family outing.Sadly,daryl didn't come..After shopping at Vivo,we headed down to Ikea to get a shoe rack.

Another long and tiring day but nonetheless a worthy outing becos I just love to get together with my family..Though I've not recieved any msgs from you,I know you still care.

I hate being sick and tired man.Having on off fever,pissing me off man..Things aren't getting any better ='(




Do you miss me ?
Am I even on your mind ?

Its been a really tough week for me,him ? Well,maybe both of us. I just hope lappy won't die out on me now becos I've got so much to blog,so much to say.

After all that happened,I'm still very deeply in love with you and I really wished you could answer all my qns. But I doubt you would..After all the msgs I sent to you and I recieve none of yours,guess that much.


Had a long and tiring day today..but nothing else was on my mind..only you.I just miss you so..so so much.I've been wanting to hug you(in kasar's whoever house,when you came home to change)..All this happened so fast,I didn't even had the courage to speak a word.All I do is cry,why ?

My sis bought me a watch that I really liked and so she bought it for my xmas present.Mummy brought me to many optical shop to get a new Guess specs for me though she just got me one on my bday.I settled down with one very nice one already and I'm gonna get it soon enough.

Last few days,when I came home to hang up my xmas wish on the tree..I saw a present under the xmas tree.It was the only present there and it said : "To: Kongkun ... From Kongkong & Des."..

Well,what else have I got to say ? Sucha loving family I have.. Thanks to all of my lovely family members,without you all..I really don't know how to pull through all this tough times with him. ( Thank God he has his friends now..) Mummy took care of me the whole night becos I am running a fever and I think my nose is gonna start a marathon soon..

I went over to his house today to get my stuffs..Like I said,I didn't speak a word to him becos my timidness took over my courage,damn it. I wished he could reply my msgs or at least my mum's msg becos mummy didn't msg him to talk about or problems..All she wanted to ask you is to join us for Dim Sum in the morning.At least show her that little respect that she deserves,
she did nothing wrong to you..

This weekend completely drained me of all strength.I don't know what else to say,what else to do to make you speak to me,make you hug me,let you know how how much I missed you since last week.Since seeing me next week is your final say..then so be it.I can't do anything else becos its already Sunday..

Again,I hope that next week would be a better week becos its xmas already..You could go anywhere you want on your holidays,just..spend a day with me..Xmas or after xmas.Really,I'll be more than contended..Till then.

Thank God it all didn't end here.
Do you still feel me thumping in your chest ?
Am I still the most precious thing to you ?
I don't know,so much questions but I got none of the ans..
Goodnight my love.

The only thing I've achieved this year is to be a successful maid.Why ? Ain't it obvious enough ?
I think I've given too much.Too much love,too much care.Given more than I should.What do I get in return ? Orders,shit,craps..! Thats why I said,Fuck my life and now,screwed my damn life up becos of you.Oh,btw,fuck myself too for falling so deep for you.




Everthing is falling apart,
even us..

Fuck you
& fuck my bloody life !

My God man,I can't believe Star's com is so damn laggy..And I mean real laaaaaaaaaaggggggggy ! She hanged there for about 5mins and got fed up so I had the chance to blog now !

So we PQ-ed for the whole midnight and I don't know why but today we PQ-ed with alot of crazy people.One aft one man,damn f irritating.One even threatened to leave the party when we were inside.Damn fucked up man.

Anways,we just took our 2nd jobs.Congrats to us =D Raining heavily again.Yes man,can sleep tight tight alr =D Nighty nights !

Hang hang !

STARRRR !

MEEE !

I met up with my dear Star today for the job thingy at the factory.=D Ate alot of food today man,all oily and unhealthy stuffs.

My nails are chipping of man,either chipping off or it just breaks like that.*snap* there goes my long beautiful nails ='( Mummy says I'm lack of calcium lol.

Anyways,enjoyed so much today.Doubt I'll be able to meet her soon.I wished she would go out on xmas eve man..hur.No plans for my xmas eve and xmas becos daryl would be going out to drink with his friends and then the next day which is xmas,he would have a hangover..so aiya,whatever man..

Why does God give me this shit everytime ? There are more holidays to come man,like new year & chinese new year.Lets see if he would leave me home alone or not ! I hate boyfriends to leave their gf's at home when its a holiday and everyone celebrates it and he leaves his gf at home.Forbids me to meet my bestfriend !! WTH !!!!!!! At least bring me where you're going luhs..So...don't tell me I'm gonna spend my valentine day at home and you'll go drink with your friends.Stop making me cry man.I don't know,i feel that i've got enough of all this man.I hate youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okays,I've vent enough anger on my blog alr zzzz Shall blog more this few days so that I would be able to cover up this post so daryl doesn't get to read it though I want him to know that I want to be with him on xmas eve..I just don't have that much courage becos this might start a quarrel again ='(

It feels so (I dont know,the feeling is indescribable) to know that
you're not spending xmas eve night with me ..sighs.

I never had so much freedom in my life before,not until I stayed with my mum.My mum given me everything I wanted,everything I needed.

But you just robbed the precious thing in my life.
Give me some damn space to breathe man.

Omg man.I am now lvl 27 =D In 4days man,my best record for maple.Usually I take about a week or two to be level 25 .. Or maybe a month =D Heeeeheee,I know I'm a bloody noob and my target before xmas is level 35 =D

Anywayssssss,I got up earlier than Prince and decided to whip up a meal for him..but there is barely anything for me to cook in the fridge zzz So I wanted to go down to buy breakfast but the blazing hot sun ruined my surprise..Oh well,good also..cos I'm super lazy to go down actually.hahahaha.

So Prince wanted me to order sushi becos I have been bugging him to go to Sakae Sushi with me for like a week or so.In the end we ordered Pizza becos I wanted to eat the Chirstmas Feast.
Damn filling can..

Anyways,think I'm gonna take a short short nap first becos I feel so super tired but I just can't get to sleep .. sighs.

Have been spending the past few nights alone,waiting for daryl ong to come home,if not waiting for him to wake up =.= Didn't go out for the whole of 3days with him..bahhhhh.Think we really need a talk..but everytime we start talking,there is bound to have a quarrel.I don't like to have a serious talk to him,cause he always freak me out with his screamings and shouting =.= lol. Dear,I scared la bloody idiot you.

Anyways,just hope you would be softer man,I don't eat hard one k...! I don't like you to stay out becos I hate to wait for you alone at home.Like bloody hell,you enjoy outside then I do nothing at home.I can't go there can't go here.not like I will cause any trouble outside or what..Now I know what Kongkum is going through man..So many many boundaries..sighs.

And......I want to go out with you man.Its like dono how long I've never held your hand(not at home) already .. Don't bring me to Heartland mall and call it "a day out with me" pls..sighs....

I don't know what my heart is feeling man.Just can't tell you how I feel..

Darling is sick again,think its shin-gles again.Wahlaooooooo,xmas coming ='( I don't wna f stay home man..Hmmmm,maybe he has no plans for xmas also..rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !

Anyways,been playing maple for the past two days,that explains why I've not been blogging so often already.Created a new char becos I got so tempted by star's new char.So I thought maybe we could play tgt and kill the same monsters tgt lol hope I'll be able to pass lvl 40 before I quit maple .. lol.

The day before yesterday,I ordered Mac's big breakfast.My order was 2Big Breakfast meal.So when the guy delivered the food,I took it up to darling room.After sorting out the food,I realised there is no big breakfast =.= but 1 zinger burger and 1 mcwings.So darling was like,aiya just eat la.zzzzzzz After 20mins,the guy knocked on the door and asked me if I've eaten it already.He was so rude man.Well,he delivered the wrong food and he expect me to wait for him to come back ? How I know if he would be back ? And it will be so troublesome for him to come back zzz
So he gave me my 2 big breakfast and left.Me and darling couldn't finish all the food man lol.
16$ for 4meal,how worth it eh ?

Hahaha,just in 15mins in Watson - Pooooosh ! 90bucks gone.


After eating my dinner,Auntie Pam told me that she is gonna go down to meet her friend..So when she opened the door she said "Come Jermaine,I introduce my friend to you..". Then I saw a kuku face there,Daryl Ong.Wasn't as surprised as I used to be,hmmm.Why ?


Anyways,he's out now.I don't know where and whats keeping him so long to come home.Bahhhh,couldn't be bothered to la.Just hope he's enjoying himself with his friends.Maybe I shouldn't even have come in between them.Becos..all this started becos of me ? And then now he thinks he is a hero for choosing me instead of his friends..Hmmmm,well.Like you always said, I can't have the best of both worlds,can you ?

We just put the xmas tree up ! =DD Now the atmosphere is like xmas already =D Here are some pictures =D

Guys just love giving roses to us..hahaha.
Found this in the storeroom,lol.

My complexion has never been this bad before,maybe becos of the late nights and potato chips,fried food..Basically all the junk foods you can name.Been drinking lots of water this few days,hopefully my complexion gets better after my period cos I think it may be becos of my damn periodddddd !

I don't know why lappy doesn't let me view any pictures on my blog(other blogs too).Like all I see is an "x" in a white box..Hmmmm,why is it like that at home ? Its perfectly fine in darling's house.Could it be the internet connection? I doubt so actually.

Whatever man.This post is so random.

I don't like going to bugis street during school holidays.That day I went with my sisters,there were a few 13-14 year old girls giving out fliers.They would chase after you just to give you the piece of paper.Wth.I know they are hard up on cash but hello,don't want means don't want right.
zzzzzz.

Other then that issue,some young girls around my age would come to me and tell me they are from -whatever- company and ask me if I'm interested in being a model.I wonder if they're fakers or scammers.Hmmmmm,I don't trust this kinda things man...

This is really a random post man,anyways,darling will be out on thursday and I feel like eating Sakae sushi ='( And he wants me to wait for his pay next this coming monday RAWRRRRR !

Been going out for the past few days and this week has really been a tiring week yet fun in a way..Hmmm,just a few days and I've got so much to blog..

The day before darling came back,I bought the ingredients to cook pasta for him for the next day so I bought all the ingredients and went home..I knew I left out something but I just couldn't think what it was.I went back and then after a few hours I realised I forgotten the main ingredient - Penne.zzz ! So I went back down to buy it.

So darling didn't really like my pasta becos I didn't put any salt before boiling the pasta..zzzzzz !Well,I think it was a good try,at least I made something to eat ! ROARRRRRRRRR ! Before heading down to TheCathay to catch our movie,we went to eat SHAKER FRIES ! I received a msg from Pearlyn that day and she told me shaker fries is back..lol,becos she know I love shaker fries.After the movie,darling went home and I back to my home.My dad came to fetch us to Great World City for my Grandma's birthday dinner..I'm damn happy can ! Talked to my dad so much and I feel like giving him a big hug man.Lol.

After the dinner,I went down to cuppage to find darling to pass him somethings.So he told me may be tonning for that night so I decided to find my dear star since darling isn't coming home.Had alot of fun with my dear star..We went to WCP after her dad went to sleep.Then we headed back to her house and then we slept for about an hour then I took the first bus back cos darling was waiting for me at home =.= Anyways,thanks star,I miss you like shit man..

I came back and I didn't have much to talk to dear..zzz I didn't know how to tell him those things that I've been thinking..Like,how I wish he could surprise me out of nowhere.Sometimes when he promisd to come to fetch me and then the next moment he said he is too tired or he overslept..Then I would be thinking whether he is waiting for me there becos he wna surprise me.Then when I saw no one there waiting for me,you know,its like a great dissappointment.. zzzzzz.Well,he have too much more to learn about giving surprises..Being tgt doesn't mean loving me only,light up this r/s with surprises luhs idiot ! zzzzz.Anyways,do you even know I love surprises ? I doubt so man..

Yesterday,went Downtown with darling,Ys and Karen..After that,we went back to Kovan to eat our dinner at Bai Jia,damn full can and the food there is very yummy..and cheap ! zzzzz.

Today,I went opp to YuYing Sec Sch to get the application form for the transferring of school,hopefully I can get this school becos its just opp darling's house..No doubt I'll miss my best friend like shit.The security there is worst then KR's.The security tried to scare my boyfriend by saying he is a Police,obviously retired one la..zzzzzzzz.He couldn't even speak a proper sentence of English..Like "No-oooo-oooo,can-nooooot wear slipp-pppeeers..." Hello,we stay just opp and he expects us to wear very nice,must I even dress up just to take a application form ?!? FYI,I was wearinf a sandals not slippers.SO like darling quarrelled with him and I decided to go in myself becos I don't wna make a scene there if not I will not get a place in that school..zzzzz.

I'll be going him tonight and becos my family is waiting for me to put up the xmas treeeeeee ! Time past really fast,there goes the year and hope it'll be a better year next year,probably me and darling could do something meaningful during xmas.I don't wna sit at home just becos he is low on cash.K,I'll better get going now becos my stomach cramp hurt like fuck.

Jermaine Kong's Pasta !

My diamond from the ring dropped out.

Finally I finished this puzzle and darling is gonna hang it up before Newyear !