Okays,so I've been sleeping at irregular times.And I wake up at the time that I shouldnt be waking up.So after waiting for his reply that takes like 30mins for 1 msg to be sent becos he was training..and so he said he wasnt in his bunk so he couldnt reply me..

So like waited for awhile and got a message from him.My heart stopped for a second or two.
His replied was "Well den again before we break,tell me you love me one last time,you know deep inside if you return to school we might very well lose one another."

And NO,I didnt initiate the break up and NO,I dont want it to happen.So again he replied,"things will happen.you have to have friends cos I cant spend everyday with you.Not while Im in NS,All it takes is one guy to text or call you then thats the beginning of the end,and as long as you're in kr i'll nvr have a peacefull sleep".. So like he don't even trust me,not at all I guess. Yes,it really hurts to know someone you actually love so deep has never trusted you,not before,not at all.

I told him I'll reject all calls except from my love ones,and I've not been talking to star for a very long time,we're more like hi-bye friends ever since we & him got together.I know I've neglected her but I hope she does know where she stands.

Im actually quite speechless now.I dont know what else to type..

And I was trying to be nice to him and he just gave me that 'whatever-attitude' which really sucks ! So like I tried figuring out things which could never be figured out without his replies.
I don't know why he doesnt trust me not to have friends on kr when all I've got actually is my sitting partner to talk.Moreover,Im a very quiet lady already.I dont do stuffs like what other girls like to do ; bitching with friends,laughing so loudly that it actually echoes the whole room,
going toilet in in a big group.In fact,I dont have anyone to do it with me,becos all I've got is myself.Is that called Isolated ?

I wished he could understand me,or rather trust me first.Why would I fall for KR guys ? And if would to flirt,it wouldnt be in KR.But again,why would I want to flirt ? He knows deep down in my heart,he's the only one..I can give up my friends jsut like he did,I can give up everything else.But,not my family & not my studies.That will be the stupidest thing I'll ever do.And somehow,Im the stupidest girl...

Your princess,

Skully-